getting self conscious about my weight again, right now i am at 138-139 with my clothes on, so about 136-137 with my clothes off. i need to lose weight, i wanna get down to 115-120 so i am now on my food deprivation until i am as skinny as ryan ross. this should go over well, i just need to have the will power. i shall carry around a picture of ryan ross at all times. going down to delaware for the week with mom,  shouldnt really eat anything while im down there.  so its all good. blahhhhhhhhh i hate being fat =[ will update to say how much weight im losing, IF i lose any weight